Posted on March 8, 2016 Leave a Comment
If you don’t follow me on Snapchat (um, you should… @dezmelfi) you have probably missed the hilarity that has ensued in my life these past 7 weeks. I decided to put together somethings I have learned thus far, while growing a human. Campbell’s Vegetable soup with alphabits used to be my jam. Like, my JAM. […]
Posted on March 7, 2016 Leave a Comment
To the Woman Still Waiting to be Mommy, Hi sweet lady. It has been on my heart to send you this message. I want you to know that my heart still aches for you and I haven’t forgotten you. One thing I know is that I always will hurt for your story of infertility because your […]
Posted on February 29, 2016 Leave a Comment
There is a heart that is beating inside of me. A heartbeat that isn’t mine. A heartbeat that belongs to a little soul we have named, for now, Baby B. They said if I could see the heartbeat the rate of miscarriage dropped dramatically. I held my breath as the doctor did the usual doctor […]
Posted on February 25, 2016 Leave a Comment
Philippians 4:4 runs across my brain “Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!” I can’t help but think back over the last 19 months. The pain that was all consuming at times, when rejoicing was the last thing I could imagine doing. The little victories via test results that got us one […]
Posted on February 12, 2016 Leave a Comment
I open my eyeholes and look at the clock expecting it to be 6:00 am. 2:17am. “UGH. Time, you are a dummy.” I roll over and will myself back to sleep. I wake up again, surely it’s time. 3:23 am, I lay there willing myself to go back to sleep. The nurse’s instructions replay in […]